Land of dreams,deals and potlucks!!

Its been 5 months that I came to "land of dreams,deals and potlucks".
Everyone knows US of A is dream land but my dreams are still waiting to be fulfilled. Everyone knows US of A is deal land because for every deal you finalize,there is another better deal just around the corner.Every indian knows US of A is land of potlucks-prepare food ,get together,eat food and play games.Sounds interesting...But am i liking it ? Yes and No both for some reasons.
Yes , because it is fun place and it looks like living a dream.
Yes , because hubby says that learning and exposure at office is great.
No , because things seems very frivolous many times.
No , because of very few job opportunities.
No , because I do not like sitting at home whole day and staring at walls.
No , because of its extreme cold weather.
No , because this place demands lots of self motivation.
No , because sometimes i feel outsider

Still struggling to find out whether it is worth living here or going back to homeland !!!

Lovely Woods !!

Excerpt from "Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening" written by Robert Frost :
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

nightmares and dreams

How a person is supposed to react when he realizes that all his worst nightmares but very few of dreams have always come true.Life is preparing him for always the next battle...Should he feel happy to be chosen one OR go depressed..
But no matter how he feels,he definitely has no choice since his fate is sealed. But he is at positive side since he knows that he has battles to be fought and won all through his life so he can not rest or take things for granted..So he must not be depressed..But can he be happy ?? Not sure about this though.

Why do we compare ourselves with others ?? i think we should never because each one has own destiny and own calamities and happiness.Everyone of us is so different yet so same.

Sometimes i wonder that we lose a lot as we grow up in life though we might grow materialistcally.

All these thoughts are weird and were disturbing me since last few days.

astitva !!

This post comes from Redmond,my current location.

Few days back, I happen to watch a movie "Astitva".

"Astitiva" is the story of Aditi (Tabu), a housewife and a mother to grown-up Son.
She is married to self-centered business man Shrikant Pandit(Sachin Khandekar) for almost 3 decades now.Her life revolves around making meals,reading newspaper, doing normal domestic chores with no other interest in the outer world and she is happy this way.
Well, the movie starts when Aditi receives a huge will from her Music Guru ,Malhar Kamat,with whom she did not have contact for more than two decades. Her husband ,who is in habit of writing dairy,gets curious and does investigation by reading his dairies.He has questions that concerns Tabu's fidelity and he rightly confronts her. She honestly tells him the truth and reasons of infidelity.He could not understand her at all and insults her in front of his friends. So far so good.
A man has spend more than 25 years of his life with woman and the way he disgraces her is totally unfair.He could never ever understand his own wife and her viewpoint.
Aditi explains that starts of the marriage was shaky for both of them with Shri being busy in his work always and on his tours most of the times. She was at home alone and feeling lonely. She asks him if they could get child Or may be she could work to pass her time. He overrules both of the options and throws an option of learning music. Tabu makes relationship with his music teacher who had sensed her lonilness.She begets son from him. Now,he is died after naming her as heir. Still ,Shrikant fails to understand the situation and worried for reaction of whole world.

I liked end of the movie where Aditi answers all the questions of Shrikant , it is totally brillant.

Watch it some time for good quality and no-nonsense movie.

in redmond,seattle

writing this post from archstone redmond hill,redmond near seattle.
My husband wanted to make this part of the world our home for few years and here we are. We put our hyderabad apartment on rent,i left my job,sold our car and many such stuff to make a new life together in Redmond. I was filled with lots of fears and some happiness at that time also and now it has not subsided. Still trying to figure out the future course of action as in things to do to keep me busy throughout the day before my work permit comes !! alien feeling is not leaving me.
Its been only one week that i came here but it feels eternal. Already thinking of back trip :-)

last working day

Today is my last working day in india.We are shifting to USA in July 2009...overwhelmed with lots of mixed emotions- some unknown fear,happiness,excitement,scared..also feeling pressurised..need to start my life (professional) and set up home in new place. Setting up a new home is something i like so that i do not repeat previous mistakes. :-) So that part involves lots of excitement along with work. Looking for new job is making me feel pressurised and i m postponing this thought till i reach new place. But setting up new home also involves leaving previous home in which i had put in work . Getting a new job also involves leaving previous one and parting with friendships made. But i firmly believe that something good must be in store for me and want to tread this path also.
Let me wish myself good luck and happiness in this move.

Let me end it with Gulzar song :

Ek Raah Rukh Gayi Tho Aur Judh Gayi
Main Mura Tho Saath Saath Raha Murgayi

Galti sab se hoti hai...

Even Google Search Engine can failure even for few minutes...Read this link for full story..
If you did a Google search between 6:30 a.m. PST and 7:25 a.m. PST on 31-Jan-2009, you likely saw that the message "This site may harm your computer" accompanied each and every search result.
http://googleblog.blogspot.com/2009/01/this-site-may-harm-your-computer-on.html

People who fail/fall seldom are noticed more when they fail/fall...

Ghajini-first movie in 2009

Yesterday,i went to see "Ghajini" with my husband and few friends. Already heard that it is loosely based on "momento" and made on theme "short term memory loss". Aamir has acted too well and i liked his performance more than "tara zameen par". I do not want to write a review of this movie but thought which hit me while & after watching this movie.
1.How small incidents change the course of life for people. Kalpana's chance meeting of the small girl (which was being taken to goa) changed life of Sanjay. Sanjay suffered a fatal blow on his head trying to save Kalpana. Is real life also full of such anomalies...
2.Another thought which crossed and empowered my mind is "will" power is supreme of all the disorders and problems which life tosses at us.Sanjay could have got Ghajini killed easily with all the money and affulence and power which he had but he did not. He overcame his inability to fight his own battle. I like to watch people rising above the problems.
I have made a resolution of writing a post on all the movies which i will watch in 2009 (in cinema halls:-)).